7.13

Back from Canada and loving my house. When I arrived on Saturday there were one million downed trees and I didn't have power until the next afternoon. But I didn't really gaf because halfway through the drive I got a text saying I owed my employer hundreds of dollars for using my work phone in Canada due to my personal phone being taken by the bog. I stopped feeling bad for myself when I saw that a tree on my block fell onto a parked car and completely crushed it. You never know when some bs like that is gonna happen...

Usually I treat money like an ambiguous force that allows me to do cool stuff, but when something goes wrong I get scared and remember that all I have to protect me is money and the love and mercy of others. When you're partnered that shield is doubled # miss that

Canada was nice though, I loved swimming and playing board games and watching horror movies. Already miss Margot and Ashley, and it was nice to meet idi and bugleague. Have you ever met 2 people for the first time by spending a week with them in a cabin? Good thing they are awesome

Still covered in a million big bites. They make me feel so ugly I am considering drastic measures such as shaving my legs or wearing self tanner. Sometimes I'm like, am I making myself ugly on purpose? Or am I doing feminism? I think I'm doing feminism by not shaving my legs but that no one cares and it probably doesn't matter. Shouldn't I give myself every possible advantage, especially since I'm dating? (Dating in air quotes). I try to act in alignment with my values but I have a new value now and it's being attractive to strangers

Camino/ Spain in less than 3 weeks. WHAT! Getting really excited each time I remember, planning my outfits and imagining walking in the hot hot sun and drinking tinto de verano with my friends. I already feel nostalgic for it